Today started with temperatures in the upper 30's and rain - lots of rain. When my alarm went off at 5:20 I laid there for a few minutes, listening . . . yup - that was rain on the roof. I thought - Maybe it was just a drizzle . . . nope - it was raining1 ;-( No outside run for this morning. I reset the alarm ;-) and slept for about another hour. Somewhere around mid-morning the rain went into a head to head fight with snow . . . with rain winning out downtown and snow winning out at my house. The temperature has continued to drop all day. The low for tonight is 24 - so it looks like a chilly run tomorrow morning - BUT the great news is it won't be raining ;-)
My work has been pretty stressful lately. Oh well - I deal with it pretty well and for the most part love my job - but sometimes !!!!!!! YIKES - I could use another vacation! Remember I was just in Florida at the end of October and on Sunday I am flying to Miami for 3 days to attend a conference. I plan to attend the conference - but any spare moment will be relaxing and again running outside without jackets, hats and gloves!
Besides the stresses of my job -the BIG stress that had be weighing on my mind lately has been that one of my staff was diagnosed with breast cancer in August. She had a lumpectomy and will be undergoing chemo, starting next week. This all just brings back way too many memories. I was diagnosed 7 years ago and started my treatments - chemo - surgery - radiation in September 2004. I KNOW that this is about her and her journey and her treatments . . . NOT ME - but I can't stop dredging up the fears of my journey! Everyone . . . well not everyone, but many MANY people have been saying to me - "Oh she is so lucky to report to you . . . you understand exactly what she is going through" . . . although I do understand what she is going through -
what happened to me
how I dealt with cancer
how I felt after chemo
how I felt about my mastectomy
how I still feel about my mastectomy
how I dealt with the fears
how I felt when I lost my hair
how I continue to deal with lymphedema
how I worry about my future
Was MY Journey - I have a hard time sharing - offering advice - . . . . it is just hard.
I have no wrap up of my comments / no "it will be OK" / no summary . . . these are just my feelings - good or bad and seeing my thoughts in black and white is part of my journey.
Hump Day - YAHOO!